A mother’s true love is unending, it a force of nature that
is hard to convey. But the love of a single mother is like a hurricane with
extra rain. Going to battle with the other parent can be the most humiliating
and frustrating conversation. It’s crazy how people expect you to depend on
them, my child is the dependent not me. I used to think that love conquers all, but
truly I see his character flaw- it was never love. I’ll admit I faked smiles
and tried to keep up with others but the real me began to be smothered. I made
myself look like a fool, and he contributed to that look too. When I decided to
take no more, something in me began to roar. I’m not a failure, nor am I less
than. I’m a woman who has to live with a consequence for lack of self control.
Children are a blessing from the Lord; it is written and very true. My child
looked in my eyes and told me not to cry. He said, “Mommy you’re not alone
anymore. You have me and God.” Those words from such a fragile soul, stick with
me daily. Pastor Matt Chandler once said, “Where the ideal lacks, grace abounds”
and no I am no longer lost I have been found. This is not a message for
sympathy or pity, I am writing for all the mothers like me. The ones who pray
more than complain, the ones who sacrifice beyond measure, the ones that feel
alone in this season, the ones that are clinging to Jesus, the ones that by the
grace of God make ends meet, the ones who smile in the face of defeat. I am
writing because we are not in this alone. I am writing this to kick satan back
under our throne. God has a heart for the “underdog”, at times it seems as if
we are the ones left on the bench. I am writing this to say, God loves you and
your child (ren) beyond measure, this season is developing you and teaching you
to solely rely on the Lord. Things get hard and it’s okay to cry but once your
eyes are dry set them on the one above, the one who has no end to His love. This
world casts us out but we’re not less than nor equal to, we are set apart to be
and to do, exactly as the Lord leads. No longer will we entertain thoughts that
are negative, no longer will we throw pity parties, no longer will we fuss,
from this moment forward we will take a deep breath and pray, pouring our heart
out to the one that holds the world in His hands but leans in with a listening
ear directly to us. People look and see the smiles and think “She’s so strong”
not knowing that this strength isn’t mine, it comes from my Heavenly Father.
There's this stigma that single mothers are after money or out to ruin the father of the child's life, that may be someone's truth but it has never been mine. There are a lot of us who genuinely want the absolute best despite the circumstances for our child. This post simply is to encourage those single mother's to continue to keep God first and know that they are not forgotten.
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